In a few days’ time I will be attending the British Book Affair signing in London AS AN AUTHOR! To say I’m feeling apprehensive is like saying that Edward Cullen was a little interested in blood, or Mr Darcy has a small cottage known as Pemberley…well, you get the idea.
I’ve blogged before about being a natural introvert and finding the whole concept of talking to people I don’t know challenging. I know, I spend much of my time talking to groups of thirty young people – but that is a completely different beast. Trust me!
I love social media; and the security of communicating from behind the safety of my laptop or iPad. And I would never have got to this point as a writer (see, I still struggle with using the word author!) if it wasn’t for the online Indie community. Possibly the best feeling is receiving a message or email from a reader and chatting with them about Curve or Heart – and inevitably more! But every time I have to step away from the screen and talk face to face, I freeze, wishing that I could just click my heels three times and find myself back home.
When I went to the Edinburgh signing, it was lovely to meet up with a couple of people I’d got to know online, one of whom has become a very good friend since then. But I could count on one hand the number of non-authors I spoke to – and that’s because it’s very difficult to ask them to sign a book without talking to them! At the Peterborough signing, I spoke to a couple of bloggers and a number of authors about the signing experience as London was weighing heavy on my mind – and my lovely sister-in-law was making me talk to people. Everyone was friendly, some amazingly so, and my troubled mind was temporarily stilled. But starting every single one of those conversations was so difficult.
Since then, I’ve channeled my nervous energy into swag designing / making and writing my third book, trying to pretend that the London signing is ages away.
I can hide no more.
If you’re coming to London, please do come over and say hello. Talk to me about books (they don’t even have to be mine), the other authors, yourself, anything really. Please. And if we’ve had any sort of communication online, tell me – it will make it easier if I feel I know you already!
I hope to blog again, after the signing, about how wonderful the experience was and how much I enjoyed talking to people…
Wish me luck!